Memory Lane,
We're here again,
Back to the days,
And I'll remember you always,
So much has changed,
Now it feels like yesterday I went away.

today’s been actually quite horrible. totally moody. first i was annoyed, then i was really mad – brothers drove me up the wall. really, sometimes they are just so so impossible.i don’t get it.

then now, i dunno why but it has suddenly sunk in deep that i miss everything. everything that was.

i’ve suddenly realised that i’ve forgotten what it’s like to sit in class with my close friends, my best friends. what it’s like to see them everyday at school, entertain each other when we’re bored in class, talk and talk and talk like we used to. it’s been what, three, four months and look at everything. it has changed so much.

i dunno why it’s taken so long for it to really sink in. i guess i was just hoping this was all a bad dream, a nightmare that i could just wake up from. but no. next monday when i go back to school it’ll be as different as the last four months have been.

and i’ve realised that for the last few months, i was completely miserable.

i’m not dissing my lovely tripleoners or any of my newfound friends, they’re awesome. it’s just that, they’re different. as much as i love making new friends, i don’t wanna lose the old.

i guess that’s why sometimes i shun facebook or bloghop selectively – i don’t wanna be reminded that they’re moving on without me, that i’m being left behind in a whole new other world. i hurts to know that they can talk about things i’ll never understand anymore and that our similarities are growing apart. we are growing apart.

and in this ridiculously arduous education system, it makes it even harder – i can’t even stay on top of my work at all, let alone spend precious time with my besties. this is all crazy.

hah, i’m just an idiot crying in front of the computer over something ridiculous aren’t i? yup. ignore me.

sorry, haha, it’s evening and i’ve been having a bad day.

it isn’t fair, nothing ever is. but that’s just life isn’t it.